So right now im laying in bed feeling like a total loser. I am so lost right now the pain is so unbarable so confusing it’s to much to describe. I can’t decide which is more painful, reading our old conversations and seeing how happy we use to be, how we told eachother everything and how we use to laugh about the little things we would say no matter how lame they where , or accepting the fact that I have lost my bestfriend due to my own selfishness. You will never understand what I would go through just to get our friendship back, you meant so much to me and I meant so much to you we where eachothers shoulders to lean on. Lifes sad and this is reality, this is one of the most strongest bonds falling apart, I’m still finding it hard to believe but I know it’s true with all the pain that I’m feeling. This is my exact feelings im expressing into words I could write so much more but it would just be pointless this would never get our friendship back , but memories with you will never be forgotten.